═══════════════✿ River flowing http://mihraskoduvally123.blogspot.com/2021/05/blog-post_21.html Part Fifteen ✿═══════════════✿ mihraskoduvally123.blogspot.com https://www.instagram.com/invites/contact/?i=o7hsgxz71i40&utm_content=8ex74zs This goat and spit is my life. The body itself is frozen. That's why I don't know the pain of the blow. The bitterness and sweetness of words and the mind do not know. My mind knows numbness before my body... flowingDays passed in agony. The children of hunger and starvation were exhausted. Sometimes the father did not come to his children for weeks or months. As there was no other course before me, my son, who was only studying in the fourth standard, was sent to a small tailor's shop to sew kudku. He was too lazy to study and it was such a joy... I just feel my heart swell. Fifteen-year-old daughter started getting marriage proposals. Instead of tying up children, do your dutyTheir father came again like a banqueter with a purpose. Many people started coming including a middle aged man and two women. I remained silent as I should not raise my voice. But the daughter who saw all the deeds of age, suffering, poverty and weakness responded. She said hug me if such people come again and left. I could see through her eyes the pain of having to raise her voice against Uppak. If he doesn't say thatDon't understand... Just a prayer that the fate of will not be inflicted on the children of Why am I like this to my children... A good idea came from the family itself. A flawless relationship. Being a family, I didn't look at anything. You confirmed it... Back was the wedding rush... Days of happiness, laughter and laughter with family and friends I still had the beginnings in my mind. Marriage is not a small thing, it is not a life, according to the local customsI was afraid of the cost of the wedding... The wedding calls were made with her ear to the ear. Everything was a question mark before me. When they asked for anything, the father did not give them a clear answer except to shout and run away. Tomorrow is near. The pandal went up... the car and the decorators came down. But even on the eve of the wedding, not a single drop of my body was broken. I have nothing. For those who come and go, talk is golden... And so it is tonightIt dawned. And my mother's wife's bangle. Nte Mol came down the stairs with Muttapan's Molle necklace and two rings given by someone. There was no time to get down happily and she got down in pain. I could do nothing but watch... In the bus going and in the house, the conversation was about empty necks and empty hands. Those who killed him went there as family members and told them everything. As soon as they got there, they realized that she had nothing in hand. "NtOh, how can you take her with all the trees... Oh, you're not kidding us... Jeshthan's words on her husband's advice burned her heart. "Don't worry about that, my child... It doesn't matter... How much money have you put in, everyone? Her uncle's words comforted her for a while. But he came to see and felt like a clown in front of the work. Suppressing speech and looking... PonitraIt was then that I could understand that (gold) a very terrible ritual was going on. A weapon that destroys the poor man's life. And so ended that day which extinguished all the flavors of new life. A new dawn again. He went home the very next day. Every ritual… Now they have to come back and collect it. Let me tell you the story... I will go now... My mother and my brothers are happy to see me. Even though I left yesterday... I have entered a new lifeAll the happiness was on their faces. Waiting for their arrival again, chicken, narchor, kuruma and quail are cooked. I also go and look sometimes.. After a long time, they did not receive any information. Totally messed up... When it got dark, someone came and informed. They will not come. don't wait The boy's father had said that he would pay two thousand rupees. When the girl goes to war, there is no gold or money. I don't want this relationship... I was completely numb when I heard itwas only When they came here, they saw their husband who brought them new shoes, and their father who happily sent them on their way. All those who were waiting with joy quietly gave food to the neighboring houses and went home again. The people and the noise were gone. With tears flowing down my face, my mother and my siblings, who did not even understand what was going on, reached the corner of the house. to be continued